Life...just a thread in a thing called Universe

I'm about to start working in a program with threads, Very complicated for me, so I started to read about the theory of Threading, processes, operative systems, etc. 20 minutes later, still didn't understand it, well, finally i went to get a coffee and... exactly when I was making it...click!, I thought..."but Life is just another thread". Now you say, "What?"...ok, i know it's pretty difficult to understand it now, but here is a breve explanation :) :

At the beginning, i thought that humans are like very short process, each of us work by our own and we ask for a quantity of time, what we usually called "lifetime" and then, when it's over, there comes another one, but it doesn't belong to us, it's from another process, I mean, human, another lifetime. So there is humanity, there is the universe, giving each of us a quantity of time, like a very big complex and powerful CPU, time enough to make something, to make a task, to produce or just make some time like a sleep() or just another job in a complex system. When a process "forks" it becomes a father...then the children makes another task using his parent's variables, and has to play with the same rules than the father, but this children has another task, and...well..anyway, let's just make it to the point :P hehe ;)....

But no!!! A Human life is a thread in the Universe...Which is one of the differences between threads and process? Threads share global variables. They have to communicate with each other. People have to communicate with each other! People is connected somehow. We are not just individual hosts in the universe...we are a network instead...we are all connected by information or variables that we can or can not control.

The book I read said exactly: "The global variables of the parent program in a thread environment are shared by all threads, and serve as the main method of communication between the threads, but each thread has its own local variables, just as is the case for process"

The conclusion is that Humans are connected by the same global variables managed by a main big System/Process (God? Destiny?You?) we decided over the our own local variables, but we have a random lifetime and we walk through life like we live in parallel worlds. Your life is "parallel" to mine although what you do can affect mine (or the complete System).



I thing i got the idea...ah? ;)

How-to-survive being Schizophrenic, paranoic, maniac and apprehensive

1) Do not recognize it...Never!
2) Show some enthusiasm about it!! Having so much mental illness makes you special :))
3) Try to connect with your other personalities, make them chat with each other. Just to relax the tension between them. Something like:...
"Hi! I'm the shy personality, sorry i stutter, i'm afraid of people...glup..:S"
"Nice to meet you!!, I'm the winner one, i know you can defeat that, just make an effort!! :D and who are you?"
"hehe, I'm the egocentric personality!! I'm dying to tell all about my day...sit! sit! you are about to get a lot of information about me:))"
4) Avoid long terms of sleeping, only when you dream is when you are not very sure about reality the next day, it can get you to confusions.
5) You need an adiction. Just to distract your mind a bit. Something like work or tv are not so good...for this, try to do more exercises, sex for example.
6) Avoid going out on Sundays. Normally on Sundays is when normal people go out the most, so, if you join them, probably your "personal characteristics" will appear more than usual and it will make you feel not so good.
7) Take a lot of coffee. Hummm... i don't know why, but only because it's delicious. ;)
8) Try to travel more. Change cultures, change countries, languages. That will make you feel mind opened so probably your mind will be distracted from your "personality defects".
9) Make a blog and transform reality into a bunch of sentences processed by your complicated mind.

I wanna be a hippie!! ...like you...

"I loved it!"- he said while he was eating-"I loved to be there, people was so pasionate, at least for me, it's another world!". We were comparing two worlds, but accidently I found out that he lived 2 years in Paraguay and 7 months in Colombia last year-"I went to Ecuador but i didn't like it as much as Colombia...I can recognize a colombian from an ecuatorian just by seeing them 2 seconds, colombians are happier" he said smiling to me. Me thinking: "I don't believe it!" Me talking aloud: "I wanna be a hippie like you!!" ... We laugh and started to eat. That day it was gonna be a very hard working day :S but I was hippy....sorry happy :P.

Harder, better, faster, stronger!!!

"Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger"

Work It
Make It
Do It
Makes Us
Harder
Better
Faster
Stronger
More Than
Hour
Our
Never
Ever
After
Work is
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Work It Harder Make It Better
Do It Faster, Makes Us stronger
More Than Ever Hour After
Our Work Is Never Over

Laughs from Destiny....

Finally tonight someone asked for results after a long time ago...
I was very tired, i was sleeping at my bed... very calm ...so quite, finally some peace through the day... But 5 minutes later...my eyes wide open again...the cellphone started to ring...
you were breathing very hard and then you asked if I was with him..
I said..."Of course...but he's not with me..." doubting about it
You asked and I answered...To change your mind about me costed me 3 seconds of a conversation....
Before I felt slept i started to think about him....about the voice behind the phone...about my friends and people that never called and now they just wanna know about me , why?

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Seeing life through a kaleidoscope...

I have recently found that I've made a big mistake.... I'm trying / fighting every day just to go out of this hole... Now, everything seems to be falling apart but something I've never loose is Hope...
One friend told me that humans always want to believe in something, a God, a feeling, a Force, I just want to believe that everything is going to be all right...Please, let it be like that.
At the end, the only thing that you can be clear about are your mistakes, and how you made them, finally the solution is to remake everything but in the right way... like to have one chance... Lucky me I have one... It's just the fear to go wrong again that wakes me up at night.... Please, don't let me fail... It seems imposible to reach what I want ... but Hope it's something I've never loose... and Love, that's something i'll never have by my side....The wind will come to take it away...again

The day i started to admire my bo$$

Something very unusual happened today...
I worked like 12 hours, maybe more, but strangely that was not sufficient to make me feel capable to make a really good work,... what happened?
Maybe I compare too much... Actually it's pretty damm bad to compare depending with who...
Ok, i have to be clear about this point... I compare myself with my boss and i said "how come he can work like 10 hours in a row and only ask for a coffee?? and me!! I work like 10 hours and the next day i get to the work a little late :P" well...it make me feel a little bad....
I'm starting to respect him...
I'm starting admire him...
I'll get crazy the day I'll think "I wanna be like him :S", I really hope that day would never come...:$

Coincidences

Let's just write it in 10 minutes. It's 1.14 am!! So quick!
Today, my boyfriend went back home in Switzerland.
Exactly one year ago, i started a blog which i never used.
Exactly two years ago, i came to Spain to finish a carreer.
Today in the same metro i run into my ex first boss and now one of my best friends, here in Barcelona.
Today is my brother's birthday, he now is 19 years old...
Oh my god! it's 1.19...
Ok,...
Today i felt realized, but not exactly as 2 years ago, because, i now how i felt that time and i don't want to feel the same way again in my life!
Now, I have 4 minutes left...
Ok , i admit it...it was a normal day...nothing happened...except that I overreact with small things...but still, I'm happier today that i was 2 years ago.
I love and I'm loved..
I care and I'm cared...
I now and I'm known...
So after this, what will happend 2 years from now??
We'll see :))...
ok 1.24 am ;))) perfect!! and the time is perfect to take another cup of coffee :)